Went for a run

I did my run this morning, yeah for me:) Then took Sami for her walk. I can't believe on Sunday I'm flying out of here with Phoenix! It hasn't sunk it yet, hell I've barely looked at my tickets! I did get some more herbs yesterday though:) I haven't really been taking them and I've been doing good, but I figured I shouldn't chance it with the travels!
I applied for UH yesterday. Hopefully this is the LAST time I ever have to apply at a college again. Filling out my form I realize that I will have attended 7 colleges before UH!!! OMG! That's a pain in the butt when it comes to transcripts!
Today is back to work-which is good (I get $ and I'm focused on other things) and bad (I really don't want to go).

I don't understand why people have to beat around the bush? I've done it in a relationship once and it was not my finest moment, as a matter of face I was the worse that I could be in a relationship at that time. Because I was so insecure in the relationship and I felt something was wrong I looked at this person's email and even text messages on his phone. Granted it was pretty clear cut that my "hunches" were correct-he was flat out lying to me and going back to another women....but that's neither here nor there, I was being sneaky and I was disgusted with myself. I've learned there is less heartache when you just come out and ask, even if you did something wrong. Sneakiness=bad stuff. To top things off instead of just being an "adult" and saying hey I did this and saw this, what's up with that? I beat around the bush and asked endless questions even though I already knew the answers. When he continued to lie to me I continued to get hurt, mad, and my imagination went crazy....all because I was too scared to just come out and ask (it would of ended a lot of drama/speculation probably a lot earlier).
So....where is all this coming from? A similar situation just happened yesterday, but I knew why I was getting asked the same question over and over again. I should have called him out right then and there but I didn't (I sent an email this morn, and so far nothing), and unlike my situation where the guy WAS lying and hiding things I am not. If I was I wouldn't post my websites where I know he can see them and check them out, I'm not stupid.
So after my run and my head it clear....I am tired of the BS.
I am not in a place in my life where I want to be in a committed relationship and who knows when this will change. If people think that I will eventually commit, settle down, and pop out some babies....
As some girls in my unit have said......
They've picked the wrong bitch!