Another Day Down

For this upcoming reserve weekend I had a meeting set up for all of the health monitors, but I sent an email out canceling the meeting. I didn't think it would be productive to meet with all of the health monitors with it being my last UTA. Once they get a new person they are going to have their own ideas and views. I got a lot of supportive, nice responses from some of the health monitors...saying that I'd be missed and that I've been very helpful and nice to everyone. That made me feel really good!
Last night I texted my friend cuz I totally miss his friendship. We text back and forth a couple of times and that was it. Today at work I emailed my folks and broke it down for them and how I felt about my friend. My Mom already emailed back and was very cool and supportive. I also bc'd my friend the email and he commented also, but then left work early. Once again I felt like crap but I needed to get stuff out. Once I got the feedback from him I felt better, like a weight has been lifted and I felt even better after Mom's email.
Who knows what my life has in store for me. I need to focus on finding out who I am and to live in the moment. It's been hard, cuz I'm so worried about everything. But I can't continue to worry and focus on "what ifs".
I was going to get my new tattoo after work but the place was closed :( I think it's cuz of the foot of snow we've gotten ARGH. But just a couple of more weeks and I'll be taking a bike ride to the beach!
I'll try and get my tattoo tomorrow after my therapy appointment. Which I need!!!!